S A D S O N G

If you need it
Something I can give
I know I'd help you if I can
If your honest and you say that you did
You know that I would give you my hand
Or a sad song
In a lonely place
I'll try to put a word in for you
Need a shoulder? well if that's the case
You know there's nothing I wouldn't do ...

... Don’t throw it all away
You’re throwing it all away at the end of the day

U N W A N T E D

I learned that in realtionships, you cant have revenge. Because to me, trying to get even with someone only makes you become more restless and the excitement of wanting the revenge so much just turns your feeling all the way back down. When your bf or gf cheats on you. It hurts right ? I know, but to stoop down as low as he/she is just utterly stupid. To gain some one back is not to get even. But to show them that you can be so much better then him/her.

Do yourself a favour, always look on both sides of the room.

K U V A R

You ever get the geeling of being annoyed and irritated just for no reason ? Even the slightest bit of things being said by anyone just completely make u feel on edge. And suddenly you feel like cursing and throwing things .Thats the feeling that is creeping up slowly in me right now. But the fact that somehow i can still contain my patience and my self rightous attitude is suprisingly new to me. I usually just curse and deal with the consequences later. But now im better at controlling myself, so at least i have sumting to be proud of.

The girlfriend says im lazy and i lack confidence ;(

G O Y O R K S H I R E !

Haaaa how i love how the british speak. Their accent makes me gawk at them when i see the way they talk. ESPECIALLY, this cute little girl. Her accent is spectacular and damnn funny !



MILLEN EVE, your the cutest babe :)



ADORABLE !

H A L L U C I N A T I O N S

Ive been getting sleepless nights all week. But the terrorizing and horrrendous dreams that ive been experiencing has soothen a lil now. The dreams are starting to fade away. But then the more sleepless nights seem to interfere. Ive pondered about it and came out with an answer that maybe it has to do with the distinct self-insecurness that i had. When i lay in bed at night, tossing and turning from left to right for hours. My mind goes strolling of into so many directions, and seriously i really cant help it. Anyway, to that one person that i adore.

I would jump off a volcano for you.

S T O M A C H A C H E

This is th 20th time ive been in and out the toilet. My stomach is hurling and churning like shit. I just cant handle it anymore. My stomach has always been so fucking sensitive, even if i eat the slightest bit of stale bread or leftovers that had'nt been heated up. This stomach of mine will go on a hurricane stike. And this will make my day more unbearable then ever. Tossing and turning on my bed all day. Like a crippled up worm that had been forced to stay in the sun; that is how i look like right now. This is all caused by the stupid nasi goreng kampung that i bought at the mamak stall last night. I have this peeve for eating food from mamak's stall. When i get home i would rush for the toilet. YES, the ultimate pooping fest begins .

Damn youuu mamak !

W A I T I N G

Here i am again. Making a fool of myself, waking up at the crack of dawn. With the feeling of indugence happiness overfilling my senses. Getting ready an dashing of to the nearest place where i can get WI-Fi just so i could spend some time with him. Eventho internet is just a meer place where we could connect and spend time. But still its my best part of living here. Just goin online with the anticipation that he will be online too. Wasting time., talking about no nonsense stuff and mayb sometimes the akward fights the akward heart to heart conversations that happens once in a blue moon. Being in love somtimes isnt that great. You fall in love, you expectations sometimes can be too unconditional. You expect the best out of everything and when it dosent turn out the way that you want it to. You just go drowning in your sorrows. The feeling of self hatred arise from the bottom of your soul .

Im in my own self-denial.