Chelsea Smile

OUT OF CONTROL

I've done evrything as you say, I followed your rules without question, I thought it would help me see things clearly, but instead of helping me to see, i look around and it's like I'm blinded. I'm spinning out of control...out of control. I'm spinning out of control...out of control.

Where should I go? What should I do? I dont understand what you want from me. 'cause I dont know if I should trust you or all of the things you've said to me. and I may never know the answer to this endless mystery. Where should I go? What should I do? I dont understand what you want from me.

I feel like I'm spinning out of control, try to focus but everything's twisted. and all along I thought you would be here to let me know I'm not alone but in fact that's exactly what I was. I'm spinning out of control...out of control. I'm spinning out of control...out of control.

All alone and spinning out of control. Out of control...

LIMA BENDA BODOH YANG AKU TAK BUAT

Lima benda bodoh yang aku tak buat.
1. Pakai overall jeans macam petani Amerika Syarikat.
2. Membiarkan seluar kaki panjang hingga ke bawah tumit kasut. Masuk tandas habis kena najis seluar tu.
3. Pakai seluar londeh bagi menayangkan boxer berjenama.
4. Membiarkan sejemput rambut panjang macam ada ekor tikus.
5. Pakai seluar londeh hingga menayangkan cleavage bontot. aku teringin ambil kemuncup dan selitkan di situ.

Setiap zaman ada busana gilanya. Ini giliran mereka. Tapi aku pernah gila pakai nike pump high cut gi bandar. Besar siak kasut tu. Rasa macam kaki transformer.

* P U F F *

Dan *puff* tiba-tiba bidadari menjelma entah dari mana-mana. Secara perlahan-lahan dia mengorek dada ku. Mematahkan tulang rusuk ku. Kemudian, dia ambil jantung ku. Dan seraya berkata, "Oh. Jantung kau sihat. Kalau buat masak Acar ni, pasti sedap. Pasti laku macam pisang goreng"

Dan *puff* tiba-tiba bidadari menghilang entah ke mana-mana.

Bersama dengan Jantung ku.

STRESS

Aku fikir, semua orang sedang tertekan sekarang. Kadangkala, mereka ini yang selalu tersenyum, selalu ketawa, tapi nampak dalam kata-kata, perbuatan mahupun dalam Facebook mereka, yang tekanan itu adalah realiti. Mungkin awal tahun ini bukan permulaan yang baik.

Mungkin, tertekan ini sesuatu yang bagus. Mungkin tidak.

THE FUCK POEM

Fuck yr friends, fuck yr friends' friends,
Fuck yr protocol, fuck yr rich politician dad,
Fuck yr expensive shinny imported car, fuck yr brother's gilfriend, yeah, his girlfriend -- the famous actress, I don't give a shit if she's an actress, instead, fuck her twice,
Fuck,
Fuck,
Fuck,
You don't give a fuck?
It's alright,
Fuck you, fuck me and fuck everyone.

BEAUTIFUL LIES

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:37pm
cmner nk hide..

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:39pm
pg kat profile. pastu g kat kotak friends. ade cm pensil kecik belah kanan ateh tu. tekan ctu. patu buang tande right kt kotak kecik

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:41pm
ok da da sayang?

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:42pm
okeh2. eh nk amek pix kt profile tu boleh ?nk bt wallpaper phone

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:45pm
amek ah sume pon tk per...

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:50pm
haihhh bz ke?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:53pm
pakai pix td lek konpius la??

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:54pm
laaa . knp plak ?adoiii. teyra dah hide profile. mmg spe2 xleh tgk


Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:55pm
masalah pic ni same ngan yg lame t kang konpius??

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:56pm
haaa ok2. nak pkai pix yg sblom ni ke ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:57pm
yela...da amek ke pic b?

Teyra Azhan April 5 at 11:58pm
ok2. dah, dh bt wallpaper fon dah pon :)

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 5 at 11:59pm
amek pic yg maner..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:00am
yg kt display ni la

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:00am
satu ni je eh..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:02am
yg len pon amek. tp yg display ni bt wllppr

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:03am
semat ke..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:04am
yuppp

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:05am
baru tau ke..hahaha..ktne ni??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:06am
di rumah :) td kuangn mbr. die ajak.g jela

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:08am
kua saje..da tau duit tkder nkkua jer..tkar lapro5 pic??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:09am
hahha. die banje. kua aaa. eh b gke home. approve relationship request tu.ok2 jp nk tuko

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:10am
ok..


Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:14am
ok pix tu ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:14am
tk la pic sowng suda??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:15am
laaa. knp xleh pix dgn mbr ?


Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:17am
pic sorg2 suda..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:21am
pix ni ok dah an


Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:22am
yup ok jer..woo..bhan b eh..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:23am
bahan b ?
bile plak ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:24am
kt wallpost b la.

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:33am
dear

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:34am
yup yup

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:39am
I LOVE U !!!

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:40am
really ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:41am
yer sure...knp tk suke euh

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:41am
aikk. ade ke ckp xsuke ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:43am
da tnyer mcmm tk cyer kt b jer kn??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:44am
mne adela. adoii

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:47am
da tuh...u loove me tk..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:47am
yes i do. ni nk tnye last. b btol2 serius ke kite cpl ni ?

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:49am
oh ingt b main ek..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:49am
nk tnye btol2 ni

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:50am
yelah serius la??/


Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:51am
klu seruis okla

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:52am
jnnji/../..

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:54am
yupp

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:55am
cpt la blik??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 12:57am
syg. hide pix syg sume. nti kng takot mangkuk tu tgk. pastu die npk plak cmnt2 kite

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 12:58am
cmner?

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 1:00am
g kat account, pastu privacy settings, pastu pg kat profile information. kat situ ade photo albums. g kat settings. tuka kpd freinds only

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 1:01am
cbe tgk??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 1:02am
ade lg syg. tuko kpd friends only

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 1:08am
da suda??

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 1:08am
boleh je lg tgk klu org len bkk

Saiful Shahrizal Aziz April 6 at 1:10am
cmne nk bt td b g kt prfcy sttg g kt photo album..btoi kn.

Teyra Azhan April 6 at 1:11am
yup. bak cni email ngn pass b. teyra bt kn kjp



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GOD IS GREAT

P/S : CHARACTER BERNAMA TEYRA AZHAN ITU ADALAH SYARIFFAH ATHIRAH ;)